vivienne ears always make me feel composed
the black book extension project: summer 2014.
so far we have billy, sean, and morgan after deleting jay.
habits are habits and problems are problems, and most habits are problems.
man so my mom’s pretty sick (dementia wise), or least she’s getting worse. and my dad only told me, and i had to tell my sister how bad it was and my other sister prolly does know but it’s not her mom and so what am i supposed to do to help when i live nine hours away?
who loses so many people who were supposed to mean so much in two months?
my mom, my blood brother, and my man.
how are they all just gone? ron was a different story but my mom and siobhan?
they will never get better.
man people keep telling me i’m obviously a party kid, so like what does that even mean?
“The Day of the Human Portrait”
Strengths: Observant, expressive, visual.
Weaknesses: Anxious, disturbed, isolated.
Meditation: All words are lies.
Advice: Don’t let pessimism occupy a central position in your life and work. Your realism should not be a prescription…
those factors you fuckin racked up
and you’re constantly reminding me
who i should be
but i baby i see clearly
the fear on your face and you chase
an insecurity that you deem necessary
i’m sorry that’s the excuse
that your neurons fire the way they do
it sucks, but it’s true
lovely, that’s you.
it’s valid but it’s sad that
that the reason you fled
but my lifestyle’s threads.
but it’s been six times and still i’m not dead
reread the premises and what they said
really happiness is inductively bred
experience presently then forget the rest
but the past resents the that forgiveness
and you sit in circles and remind yourself
that this should never happen again
it eats you
at your mentality’s expense.
see the walls are not at all cement
and give up that shit you call ethics.
everyone i know is just flat insane in various ways.